{"id":1149,"date":"2015-03-07T08:01:32","date_gmt":"2015-03-07T08:01:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1149"},"modified":"2015-03-07T08:01:32","modified_gmt":"2015-03-07T08:01:32","slug":"want-to-jump-off-the-ride","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1149","title":{"rendered":"Want to jump off the ride"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I&#8217;m tired of things. Life is a huge false ride and I&#8217;ve had enough of its bullshit. I want to jump off the ride. Work is too much. I need to retire. Soon. I&#8217;m not me. Someone else is me. I&#8217;m just floating behind and above myself. Like a swirling mist flollowing someone. Maybe I&#8217;m just ectoplasm. It&#8217;s all me and I yet I don&#8217;t think I know who me or I actualy are or is. I&#8217;m not working today. I&#8217;ve come back to bed. My ears are ringing. My energy is edgy. I&#8217;m going up or down and I don&#8217;t know which. Maybe it&#8217;s both&#8230;a mixed episode. I hope not. \u00a0 I thought I&#8217;d gotten on top of everything. I just want to be a kid again. Being grown up sucks. It&#8217;s not fun anymore. When I was a kid I could play or pretend to be a grown up but now I&#8217;m a grown up I&#8217;m still pretending to be one. It sucks. I need to retire. Time to look at the ride again.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m tired of things. Life is a huge false ride and I&#8217;ve had enough of its bullshit. I want to jump off the ride. Work is too much. I need to retire. Soon. I&#8217;m not me. Someone else is me. I&#8217;m just floating behind and above myself. Like a swirling mist flollowing someone. Maybe I&#8217;m &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1149\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Want to jump off the ride<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1149","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1149"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1149"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1149\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1150,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1149\/revisions\/1150"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1149"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1149"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1149"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}