{"id":1201,"date":"2015-04-14T05:39:14","date_gmt":"2015-04-14T05:39:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1201"},"modified":"2015-04-14T05:39:14","modified_gmt":"2015-04-14T05:39:14","slug":"being-aware-of-things","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1201","title":{"rendered":"Being aware of things"},"content":{"rendered":"

Yesterday I had lots of anxiety. Nothing unusual there. I’m often anxious. It felt worse than normal and I couldn’t work out why I was anxious either. \u00a0I had my drumming lesson last night and didn’t feel like going. I felt a bit sick in my stomach and had a headache but before I left I had a glass of water and once there it was a great lesson. Fantastic lesson actually. I got home feeling good but hungry. All good so far. Then at bedtime I needed to pee quite a bit. I couldn’t remax fully and it was about 1am or later before I turned the light off. Even then I was wide awake. I forced myself to lay down and did sleep. I woke about 5:30am and feel good. I’m anxious again this morning. I think I’m going sky high. I don’t know. I’m so unsure. Until later gets here I won’t know. I’ll try forcing myself to sleep earlier tonight. If I can. At least last night I kind of relaxed while in bed although I did come over cold at one point and shook quite hard while in the toilet. I don’t know where this is heading but I need to keep both eyes on it and fully aware too. I’m a bit fearful too. I could do with the energy of a high but not the shittyness of it.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Yesterday I had lots of anxiety. Nothing unusual there. I’m often anxious. It felt worse than normal and I couldn’t work out why I was anxious either. \u00a0I had my drumming lesson last night and didn’t feel like going. I felt a bit sick in my stomach and had a headache but before I left … Continue reading Being aware of things<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1201","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1201"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1201"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1201\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1202,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1201\/revisions\/1202"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1201"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1201"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1201"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}