{"id":1227,"date":"2015-04-25T20:00:29","date_gmt":"2015-04-25T20:00:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1227"},"modified":"2015-04-25T20:00:29","modified_gmt":"2015-04-25T20:00:29","slug":"saturday-anger-and-stuff","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1227","title":{"rendered":"Saturday, anger and stuff"},"content":{"rendered":"

I didn’t post in here this morning because someone had tried to hack into the site. Anyway this morning I had a raging anger. Really bad anger welled up inside me. I went to work briefly for a few hours and luckily I was alone. I felt like going out to find trouble. To find a fight. A physical violent fight. I wanted to get hurt and beat someone to a pulp. I dwelled on it. I revelled in it. And I raged away in my own head torturing myself all the more. After I finished at 11am I drove home and went to bed for a few hours. I slept like a log. Luckily when I woke I felt a little better. \u00a0I lost my temper last night and told my daughter off for something minor. I told her off unnecessarily. I apologised straight away. Poor little thing. She’s 9. \u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0Once up this afternoon I took us out for late lunch and have calmed even more since. We had a nice time and have also had a fire in the garden along with marshmallows. All is getting better again. We even planted the veggie garden too this evening.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I didn’t post in here this morning because someone had tried to hack into the site. Anyway this morning I had a raging anger. Really bad anger welled up inside me. I went to work briefly for a few hours and luckily I was alone. I felt like going out to find trouble. To find … Continue reading Saturday, anger and stuff<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1227","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1227"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1227"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1227\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1228,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1227\/revisions\/1228"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1227"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1227"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1227"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}