{"id":1318,"date":"2015-06-01T06:00:22","date_gmt":"2015-06-01T06:00:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1318"},"modified":"2015-06-01T06:00:22","modified_gmt":"2015-06-01T06:00:22","slug":"monday-and-anxiety-yet-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1318","title":{"rendered":"Monday and anxiety yet again"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Once again I&#8217;m anxious. Very anxious. I&#8217;m not sure why because today I can have an easy day if I want to. I woke up at 5:15 and have snoozed a little since then. I&#8217;ve got cold sores coming on my face again, I thought they were going. \u00a0My stomach is in knots too. I&#8217;m hoping that once I&#8217;m at work it will pass. I feel silly because yesterday I felt normal and because of that I felt fake. How bloody stupid of me. Who am I really and when will I know? <\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I&#8217;m sat here tying myself in knots and I don&#8217;t even know what about. I know I have to step back on the treadmill yet again. Everything is building up. I think I&#8217;m starting to worry about how I will pay for the funeral too. There&#8217;s still so much to do and so ice paperwork to go through. It&#8217;s getting a bit painful again. I&#8217;m hot too. My body is hot. Do I get lots of paperwork sorted out today or do I go to physical work and earn money. I don&#8217;t know. The house needs more clearing too. I never used to be so indecisive. I&#8217;m becoming a twat now I&#8217;m getting older. Weak minded too. Ah sod it all. I might just go back to bed. Go and hide from it all. I wish I could but I can&#8217;t. \u00a0 \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Oh my ears are ringing too. Am I going up or down. I don&#8217;t know. I&#8217;ll have to wait and see. Fuck.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Once again I&#8217;m anxious. Very anxious. I&#8217;m not sure why because today I can have an easy day if I want to. I woke up at 5:15 and have snoozed a little since then. I&#8217;ve got cold sores coming on my face again, I thought they were going. \u00a0My stomach is in knots too. I&#8217;m &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1318\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Monday and anxiety yet again<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1318","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1318"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1318"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1318\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1319,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1318\/revisions\/1319"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1318"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1318"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1318"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}