{"id":1380,"date":"2015-07-14T05:41:42","date_gmt":"2015-07-14T05:41:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1380"},"modified":"2015-07-14T05:41:42","modified_gmt":"2015-07-14T05:41:42","slug":"anxiety-welcome-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1380","title":{"rendered":"Anxiety welcome back…."},"content":{"rendered":"

Less than 7 hours sleep. Chest is tight and has a little pain. Anxiety is back yet again. Nice. \u00a0Oh how I’ve not missed being anxious. I’m so tired and so anxious this morning. My dreams were all over the place. My head was tying itself up in knots too. I’ve realised that I’m all over e place and my zest for work has gone out of the window completely, yet I know I need to earn money. \u00a0I really can’t be bothered. \u00a0I really can’t. \u00a0I don’t want to get us into debt again by not earning money either. I’m so tired of chasing money only for it to slip through my fingers like trying to hold onto handfuls of water all day. \u00a0I can’t do it. \u00a0I’ve been wearing my mask again and it’s catching up with me. \u00a0I think I’m loosing, or have lost, my grip on reality. \u00a0I’ve been very productive and wish I could hold onto it forever but I know I can’t. It’s slipping away. \u00a0It’s going under. It’s like drowning slowly in ones own emotions and ones own thoughts. Self drowning. The self drowning. \u00a0Sinking lower. Oh fuck. <\/strong><\/p>\n

I need to get to get a grip. \u00a0I really do. \u00a0There’s so much going on and I need help. \u00a0I honestly think I need help. Help.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Less than 7 hours sleep. Chest is tight and has a little pain. Anxiety is back yet again. Nice. \u00a0Oh how I’ve not missed being anxious. I’m so tired and so anxious this morning. My dreams were all over the place. My head was tying itself up in knots too. I’ve realised that I’m all … Continue reading Anxiety welcome back….<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1380","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1380"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1380"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1380\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1381,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1380\/revisions\/1381"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1380"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1380"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1380"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}