{"id":1478,"date":"2016-01-02T22:37:54","date_gmt":"2016-01-02T22:37:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1478"},"modified":"2016-01-02T22:37:54","modified_gmt":"2016-01-02T22:37:54","slug":"anxiety-yet-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1478","title":{"rendered":"Anxiety yet again."},"content":{"rendered":"

I am anxious yet again. I am off Facebook because I need to get my head around everything. I need to retreat into myself once again. I’m shocked at what I did last night yet not surprised in some ways. I feel glad that I’m here writing this right now. My anxiety is building though. I am levelling off from being so mixed or at least I hope I am. Lately I have had anger and rage build up so fast it can be worrying. The last few weeks I have pushed my mind and body too far I think and this is the moment of payback that always happens. My cough has almost subsided and that is a relief. My neck is sore from last night but that’s ok. I can deal with that. The mental torture I put myself through is what I need to control now. I have to reassess what my triggers are. I am not going to be drinking for a while now or at least I’m going to try not too. Retreat into self is the way I know that works. I must sleep soon and get my circadian rhythms back on track. \u00a0I need to eat and sleep properly again. I could do with more time off work but that will come. I am looking forwards to getting back to the routine of work on Monday and really hope it balances my fucking crazy mind. \u00a0Yesterday seems such a long way away and that’s good.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I am anxious yet again. I am off Facebook because I need to get my head around everything. I need to retreat into myself once again. I’m shocked at what I did last night yet not surprised in some ways. I feel glad that I’m here writing this right now. My anxiety is building though. … Continue reading Anxiety yet again.<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1478","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1478"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1478"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1478\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1479,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1478\/revisions\/1479"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1478"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1478"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1478"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}