{"id":1500,"date":"2016-01-13T06:48:00","date_gmt":"2016-01-13T06:48:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1500"},"modified":"2016-01-13T06:48:00","modified_gmt":"2016-01-13T06:48:00","slug":"getting-closer","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1500","title":{"rendered":"Getting closer"},"content":{"rendered":"

It will soon bemonday and I’m not sure if that will bring a type of relief or if it will bring even more questions than answers. I guess it will be what it will be. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Last night before bed I had some anxiety, not lots but some. \u00a0Ask layin bed to go to sleep I mentally went back, maybe it was a flashback, to the last week my dad was alive. I’m not sure why it happened but it did. Maybe I’m looking for answers. I don’t know, but then I don’t know much anymore. \u00a0That’s life or at least my life. \u00a0 \u00a0I had quite vivid dreams last night, mostly about work and about customers bringing other trades people onto my jobs. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Yesterday daytime my moods didn’t shift quite as much, maybe up to 8 times but most of the day they were kind of settled at high until I crashed mid afternoon. \u00a0I finished work about 4pm and came home and took my son to a toy shop ask had said I might. Before we went out I had a double shot coffee to try to level me out. When we got home a short while later I went to bed to sleep for an hour or so. I had hoped the coffee would keep me awake a little so I could try to get back to clean sleeping instead of late afternoon\/early evening sleep. \u00a0It didn’t work. The coffee didn’t make me stay awake early on. I did make myself turn the light off at 11pm and go to sleep. I hope I’m levelling a little. \u00a0This morning I still feel way outside of myself but not as wired as I could and I’m not anxious. \u00a0I’m not bouncing off the walls either so maybe I’m level. Maybe I’m not. I’ve no idea. \u00a0It is what it is and I’m just going with the flow. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It will soon bemonday and I’m not sure if that will bring a type of relief or if it will bring even more questions than answers. I guess it will be what it will be. \u00a0 Last night before bed I had some anxiety, not lots but some. \u00a0Ask layin bed to go to sleep … Continue reading Getting closer<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1500","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1500"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1500"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1500\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1502,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1500\/revisions\/1502"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1500"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1500"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1500"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}