{"id":1519,"date":"2016-01-22T20:14:08","date_gmt":"2016-01-22T20:14:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1519"},"modified":"2016-01-22T20:14:08","modified_gmt":"2016-01-22T20:14:08","slug":"friday-internal-fights","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1519","title":{"rendered":"Friday internal fights"},"content":{"rendered":"

This morning was a morning of far too much internal dialogue and internal fights. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0A friend messaged me to see if I was ok and I kind of rambled and said not so good. She messaged back that she had almost finished one job and could chat shortly. I figured she meant message chat but she phoned instead and was a real star at telling me it’s ok to just be as I was and to try not to analsie too much. \u00a0She helped me realise I was beating myself up far too much. \u00a0I figure I need to be able to phone my wife when I’m like that and maybe have a different code word than the one she uses to tell me if I’m going off on one. Food for thought. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had called the psych nurse this morning and managed to chat with her this afternoon and she also put my mind at ease. I had a few questions, most of which I had forgotten, and she was really good at answering them. My next appointment will be with the psychiatrist and I can discuss more then too and ask more questions. I think what has surprised me most about having a diagnosis is I don’t feel so fake about it all now. \u00a0I always new my thinking was a it different but now I know it is and that there’s a reason why. Mostly it’s because I’m awesome. Mostly. I only wish everyone could see the world how I do when I’m on a fantastic high and hear all that I can hear too.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This morning was a morning of far too much internal dialogue and internal fights. \u00a0 \u00a0A friend messaged me to see if I was ok and I kind of rambled and said not so good. She messaged back that she had almost finished one job and could chat shortly. I figured she meant message chat … Continue reading Friday internal fights<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1519","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1519"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1519"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1519\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1520,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1519\/revisions\/1520"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1519"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1519"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1519"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}