{"id":1523,"date":"2016-01-25T06:50:34","date_gmt":"2016-01-25T06:50:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1523"},"modified":"2016-01-25T06:50:34","modified_gmt":"2016-01-25T06:50:34","slug":"monday-morning-anxiety-and-headache","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1523","title":{"rendered":"Monday morning anxiety and headache"},"content":{"rendered":"

I woke up this morning with anxiety or anxiety woke me more likely. I’ve. Little bit of a headache too. I’m not too sure what the anxiety is about fully but it’s mostly work based. \u00a0At times like this I wonder how much longer I can cope with working. I know working kind of keeps me going but at the same time it’s a huge part of some of the issues I face in life too. \u00a0I try to remember how much I enjoy work when I feel like this and work really is my social life. \u00a0I never socialise other than work and I think that suits me fine. \u00a0What does concern me though is if I’m not feeling fully in the right place my head wanders when I’m at work and I often wonder if I’m doing the job to my best ability. Mostly I am. <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I can’t remember if I wrote in here yesterday or not. Oh well. It is what it is. \u00a0The headache kind of blinds me a bit I guess. \u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n

Yesterday we had lunch at my mother in laws and my father in law made a point of saying what a difference I’ve made to their family. It was very kind of him but I felt really embarrassed and very edgy about it. I personally feel like I’m a fuck up and it’s just he doesn’t know what a fuck up I am. \u00a0I feel like the world could crumble down around my ears at any time and it wouldn’t surprise me. \u00a0I guess they all just see the mask I wear. \u00a0It’s quite funny really because I have chatted privately with my sister in law who has her own mental health issues and she knows where I’m at. It’s funny because they see her a s a little bit out there or maybe ‘off her trolley’ but she’s probably as stable or maybe more stable than I am. Maybe she’s just wearing her mask really well too. \u00a0Anyway lunch wasn’t stressful for me yesterday and I’m glad I went. \u00a0It was my younger stepdaughters birthday last week so that’s why we all had lunch. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

While out for lunch a friend of mine messaged me to ask if she could call me because she thought she could be going manic. I went out to our car and called her. She was in a bit of a state but I managed to talk some sense into her and hopefully claimed her down a bit. \u00a0It was the first time she has ever messaged to ask if she can call so I was a bit concerned. I’ll check in with her later today and see how she is doing. She did message last night to thank me for listening to here and said that nobody usually listens to her. \u00a0I won’t go into detail here as to what her situation was but she was very worried and scared that she had done something and didn’t know she had. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I’m now drinking a big cup of tea. What a tonic tea can be. \u00a0I think I need to drink more fluids again.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I woke up this morning with anxiety or anxiety woke me more likely. I’ve. Little bit of a headache too. I’m not too sure what the anxiety is about fully but it’s mostly work based. \u00a0At times like this I wonder how much longer I can cope with working. I know working kind of keeps … Continue reading Monday morning anxiety and headache<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1523","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1523"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1523"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1523\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1524,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1523\/revisions\/1524"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1523"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1523"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1523"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}