{"id":1614,"date":"2016-09-21T08:05:34","date_gmt":"2016-09-21T08:05:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1614"},"modified":"2016-09-21T08:05:34","modified_gmt":"2016-09-21T08:05:34","slug":"im-real","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1614","title":{"rendered":"I’m real…."},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve been told by countless people now that they love that I’m real. I don’t know why. Maybe people are so used to sugar coated bullshit and I’m just being myself and being open about my life struggles. Maybe that’s it. Maybe I am real. I feel very real right now. \u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n

I’m still going up and down a lot. There’s a song that resonates with me at the minute. Kurt Vile and the violators, Pretty pimping. It’s a great song. it sums me up, although I can’t look in a mirror at the minute because I won’t know who’s looking back at me. Who am I ? \u00a0Maybe I’m real but who really am I? Am I you? Am I me? \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I’m tired again for a short while. \u00a0I went out last night and got home about 11:30pm. I was wired so didn’t sleep until 3am and had to force myself to turn lights off etc. I was up just after 6 this morning again as usual. I’m over sensitive too. One right sentence and I’m glowing. One wrong or confusing word or sentence and I get close to the tipping point. I’m tired by it all. Circles within circles. Endless repetition. I think I really am in either groundhog day or a simulation of life.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I’m discharged from mental health as it \u00a0was short term recovery from crisis that I was under them for. Its a good job mind are there sometimes!\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’ve been told by countless people now that they love that I’m real. I don’t know why. Maybe people are so used to sugar coated bullshit and I’m just being myself and being open about my life struggles. Maybe that’s it. Maybe I am real. I feel very real right now. \u00a0 I’m still going … Continue reading I’m real….<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1614","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1614"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1614"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1614\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1615,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1614\/revisions\/1615"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1614"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1614"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1614"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}