{"id":1618,"date":"2016-09-24T10:14:37","date_gmt":"2016-09-24T10:14:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1618"},"modified":"2016-09-24T10:14:37","modified_gmt":"2016-09-24T10:14:37","slug":"dancing-with-the-devil","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1618","title":{"rendered":"Dancing with the devil"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Lost inside the prison that is my mind I try to find they keys to set me free but it&#8217;s just a labyrinth.<br \/>\nI search for myself in my deepest darkest depths and recess&#8217;.<br \/>\nThe mental and physical pain becoming more real as each day passes.<br \/>\nI reach out but am fragile. More fragile than I dare to admit even to myself.<br \/>\nThe world is a haze of vagueness.<br \/>\nTime moves slowly yet fast.<br \/>\nThoughts are like water. I&#8217;m drowning in them and sinking yet somehow I manage to breath&#8230;..just.<br \/>\nThe darkness calls me home yet again.<br \/>\nI try to resist but it chases me.<br \/>\nThe devil and I dance but I&#8217;m ahead.<br \/>\nHe&#8217;s on my tail though chasing me.<br \/>\nHow long will I outrun even myself?<br \/>\nThe depths of despair encompass me.<br \/>\nDeeper into the void I go searching for the light.<br \/>\nOnly in absolute darkness will the true light shine forth calling me home.<br \/>\nThe hell hounds are unleashed by the devil.<br \/>\nI out run them too but I&#8217;m tired.<br \/>\nThe fight gets ever more real and ever more violent.<br \/>\nAt the edge of the abyss I jump.<br \/>\nI cross the threshold and pass the dweller of the Abyss yet again.<br \/>\nInto darkness beyond black I plunge.<br \/>\nOnly here will I find my peace and enlightenment.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Lost inside the prison that is my mind I try to find they keys to set me free but it&#8217;s just a labyrinth. I search for myself in my deepest darkest depths and recess&#8217;. The mental and physical pain becoming more real as each day passes. I reach out but am fragile. More fragile than &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1618\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Dancing with the devil<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1618","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1618"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1618"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1618\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1619,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1618\/revisions\/1619"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1618"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1618"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1618"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}