{"id":163,"date":"2014-03-26T06:54:24","date_gmt":"2014-03-26T06:54:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=163"},"modified":"2014-03-26T06:54:24","modified_gmt":"2014-03-26T06:54:24","slug":"a-new-day","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=163","title":{"rendered":"A new day"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Up early again this morning. I&#8217;m feeling pretty ok. Things aren&#8217;t nearly as glum as I had thought yesterday. That&#8217;s the down side of paranoia. I&#8217;m not sure where I was at yesterday, but I&#8217;m not there today. I tied myself in knots. Everything is a circle, especially thinking and more so when it&#8217;s bad thinking. I jump in and go around and around going deeper and deeper. As much as I plan to notice triggers I can&#8217;t always and there are times when I get too deep too fast. Solitude is what&#8217;s needed.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I&#8217;m never sure when instinct is there or paranoia. I guess instinct wouldn&#8217;t tie me in knots or dig a hole for me. Paranoia most certainly would and does. Those are the things I need to look out for I guess.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I love being me most of the time. Sometimes I&#8217;d love to be someone else though.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Up early again this morning. I&#8217;m feeling pretty ok. Things aren&#8217;t nearly as glum as I had thought yesterday. That&#8217;s the down side of paranoia. I&#8217;m not sure where I was at yesterday, but I&#8217;m not there today. I tied myself in knots. Everything is a circle, especially thinking and more so when it&#8217;s bad &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=163\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">A new day<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-163","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/163"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=163"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/163\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":164,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/163\/revisions\/164"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=163"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=163"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=163"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}