{"id":1656,"date":"2016-10-17T06:36:15","date_gmt":"2016-10-17T06:36:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1656"},"modified":"2016-10-17T06:36:15","modified_gmt":"2016-10-17T06:36:15","slug":"money-chasing-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1656","title":{"rendered":"Money chasing again"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today is a day where were it not for needing to get money in I would go back to bed. \u00a0My ears are ringing and pulsating, my heart is still racing a bit, my body still aches and I feel hot. \u00a0I’m struggling for motivation. \u00a0A few years ago I would of had a day off and broken the cycle but I cannot afford the day off right now. \u00a0So I’ll put the mask on, not that it’s ever off anymore now and I’ll force food down, get dressed and go to work and pimp my services out yet again. <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0Things are getting to me in countless ways. \u00a0I’m not going into detail as I know what it all is. \u00a0I carry too much inside. \u00a0Too many things I can’t let go of and too many people out to nobble others over. Too many agendas. \u00a0Everyone out for themselves. I don’t like it and it’s not who I am. \u00a0Maybe I’m robbing myself, as always, yet again. \u00a0Retreat is the safest option. \u00a0Too many with their own agendas. \u00a0Retreat into self. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Today is a day where were it not for needing to get money in I would go back to bed. \u00a0My ears are ringing and pulsating, my heart is still racing a bit, my body still aches and I feel hot. \u00a0I’m struggling for motivation. \u00a0A few years ago I would of had a day … Continue reading Money chasing again<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1656","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1656"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1656"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1656\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1657,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1656\/revisions\/1657"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1656"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1656"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1656"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}