Yesteday morning I woke up about an hour before normal with huge anxiety. \u00a0I’d say the anxiety woke me. \u00a0I napped until I did get up. \u00a0I felt agitated and edgy. Doom and gloom were all I could hint about scenarios playing on my mind of countless things going wrong. \u00a0Maybe in part this was because our car had the brakes fail on it a couple of days ago and I knew I’d have to get it fixed and also do the school run which meant less time at work and also needing to get money in to pay to fix the car. \u00a0It got worse when my daughter refused to go to school and I ended up going to work even later. \u00a0Nothing felt good. \u00a0I tried hard to question my thinking and to reassure myself but my thoughts were dark. \u00a0Very dark for a short while. \u00a0Everything seemed dark. \u00a0My wife messaged about half an hour after I got to work to say our daughter would now go to school so I came home and took her. \u00a0She cried on the way and I reassured her it would be OK while feeling like my mental health affects everyone around me and upsets their own feelings. \u00a0I got back to work and was going to cancel my drumming lesson as I felt I couldn’t face it. \u00a0All I could think about was my earlier life and some things which had got to me and affected me back then. \u00a0So many situations that were tricky at the time. They all hit me and I didn’t fight back as such but kept questions my thinking. \u00a0After a while it got better. \u00a0I honestly felt like I was getting unwell again. \u00a0I have noticed that I’m on Facebook a bit more again, although still sticking to my rules, and I’m obsessing about my YouTube channel and views on my videos. \u00a0The feelings and anxiety passed and I’m glad they did. It won’t be the last time I have things crop up and the more therapy I have the more I will have to deal with. \u00a0<\/b><\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 I did go drumming and I took my son fishing afterwards too. <\/b><\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 I survived again. \u00a0<\/b><\/p>\n
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Yesteday morning I woke up about an hour before normal with huge anxiety. \u00a0I’d say the anxiety woke me. \u00a0I napped until I did get up. \u00a0I felt agitated and edgy. Doom and gloom were all I could hint about scenarios playing on my mind of countless things going wrong. \u00a0Maybe in part this was … Continue reading Yesterday anxiety<\/span>