{"id":1709,"date":"2017-05-08T05:45:34","date_gmt":"2017-05-08T05:45:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1709"},"modified":"2017-05-08T05:45:34","modified_gmt":"2017-05-08T05:45:34","slug":"vivid-dreams-nightmares-and-circles-in-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1709","title":{"rendered":"Vivid dreams, nightmares and circles in life"},"content":{"rendered":"

Last night was another night of very vivid dreams. \u00a0I’ve had several lately. \u00a0Mostly they’re about my parents. Last nights was no exception as it was about my dads funeral. \u00a0It was a fictional dream but involved me not being allowed to organise his funeral and not being allowed to be part of it. \u00a0It had been organised by local GP’s. \u00a0I confronted them at the wake. I made a huge effort to find out what had gone on and why and found one of the doctors, tripped him up backwards, put a towel over his face and smashed his nose and face in with punches. \u00a0I had argued with them and knew they were trying to force me to get aggressive so that they could say I was mentally unstable. \u00a0They wanted me to look a fool and wanted to feel superior to me. \u00a0I knew that I’m more intelligent than them but it was the usual case of when someone is less intelligent and think that they’re clever they fool themselves and create false scenarios and so on so that they have a marker or reference point to be able to say that they’re better or cleverer. \u00a0Almost like a form of cognitive dissonance about their own intelligence instead of a belief about an external thing. \u00a0I guess it is just that actually. \u00a0 Also I had some strange dreams about my children and some other children. \u00a0Somehow I was trying to keep them safe and there was something one of them wanted to gland do latest night but I was so tired. \u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0It’s extremely windy here this morning and it’s like autumn rather than late spring. \u00a0It’s strange as it soften Autumn I have dreams like these. \u00a0I know I’m only days away from the second anniversary of my fathers death and I know that it is and will affect me. \u00a0Saturday I was hypomanic for half of the day. \u00a0I’ve seen a few maters and signs too. \u00a0My sleep is compressed and I have energy again after a week or two of it tailing off. \u00a0Circles and cycles seem unbreakable at times. It’s endless. \u00a0I need to get away. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Last night was another night of very vivid dreams. \u00a0I’ve had several lately. \u00a0Mostly they’re about my parents. Last nights was no exception as it was about my dads funeral. \u00a0It was a fictional dream but involved me not being allowed to organise his funeral and not being allowed to be part of it. \u00a0It … Continue reading Vivid dreams, nightmares and circles in life<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1709","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1709"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1709"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1709\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1710,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1709\/revisions\/1710"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1709"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1709"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1709"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}