{"id":1728,"date":"2017-06-12T14:29:18","date_gmt":"2017-06-12T14:29:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1728"},"modified":"2017-06-12T14:29:18","modified_gmt":"2017-06-12T14:29:18","slug":"tightrope","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1728","title":{"rendered":"Tightrope"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I feel I&#8217;m walking a tightrope again. I&#8217;ve been coping well for a while and been pretty level for a while but today I feel like the black dog might be chasing me again. \u00a0I&#8217;ve been overthinking and inventing stories in my mind. I&#8217;m tired and I&#8217;m tired of having to fight. \u00a0I know I said I&#8217;ll not fight anymore I&#8217;ll just accept, and that&#8217;s what I&#8217;m trying to do, but this has fucked with my life too many times. \u00a0How many times does one keep getting up? When does one know it&#8217;s not worth it? \u00a0Why do people wish mental illness on others? \u00a0I need to sleep lots tonight to be able to keep being normal again tomorrow. \u00a0I need a break. We&#8217;re supposed to just work hard and everything will be good. \u00a0I work too hard and am always pushing a weight up a hill. \u00a0It&#8217;s not even real any more. \u00a0I wish my thoughts would slow a little.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I feel I&#8217;m walking a tightrope again. I&#8217;ve been coping well for a while and been pretty level for a while but today I feel like the black dog might be chasing me again. \u00a0I&#8217;ve been overthinking and inventing stories in my mind. I&#8217;m tired and I&#8217;m tired of having to fight. \u00a0I know I &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1728\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Tightrope<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1728","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1728"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1728"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1728\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1729,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1728\/revisions\/1729"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1728"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1728"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1728"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}