{"id":1746,"date":"2017-08-14T06:11:37","date_gmt":"2017-08-14T06:11:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1746"},"modified":"2017-08-14T06:11:37","modified_gmt":"2017-08-14T06:11:37","slug":"anxiety-and-thoughts-from-within","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1746","title":{"rendered":"Anxiety and thoughts from within"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Anxiety. \u00a0Again. \u00a0Thoughts of what can go wrong in life. Again. \u00a0I&#8217;m highly strung at the minute and a few things have set me off. Although I&#8217;ve come along way with recovery from my last episode outside things and people still affect me and they still try to exert control over me. \u00a0It&#8217;s a fine line in knowing if I&#8217;m in control or if I&#8217;m loosing control. \u00a0Coping mechanisms are good but maybe they over compensate and over work themselves creating a false reality and false hope. \u00a0I&#8217;m tired. \u00a0Others still seem to push me. \u00a0It&#8217;s that time of year yet again. Every year. \u00a0How to break the cycles of the mind. \u00a0I&#8217;ve been sitting here working out how things used to be. \u00a0How I used to have thousands in the business and my personal account too. \u00a0 I&#8217;ve been working out or thinking or even wondering how things might of been had I not, had we not, of sold our last house and moved. \u00a0It&#8217;s a fight. \u00a0Often it feels like a fight I cannot win. \u00a0I keep going but it will all kill me. \u00a0Slowly. \u00a0Others exert their pressure and bit by bit it&#8217;s taking me down. It&#8217;s cutting my roots through. \u00a0My mind. \u00a0What a bastard. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Anxiety. \u00a0Again. \u00a0Thoughts of what can go wrong in life. Again. \u00a0I&#8217;m highly strung at the minute and a few things have set me off. Although I&#8217;ve come along way with recovery from my last episode outside things and people still affect me and they still try to exert control over me. \u00a0It&#8217;s a fine &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1746\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Anxiety and thoughts from within<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1746","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1746"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1746"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1746\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1747,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1746\/revisions\/1747"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1746"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1746"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1746"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}