{"id":1766,"date":"2017-09-04T19:17:54","date_gmt":"2017-09-04T19:17:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1766"},"modified":"2017-09-04T19:33:17","modified_gmt":"2017-09-04T19:33:17","slug":"tiredness-and-energy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1766","title":{"rendered":"Tiredness and energy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I&#8217;m tired. It&#8217;s only 8:08pm and I&#8217;m tired. I could sleep. I&#8217;ve noticed my thoughts are a little faster. My ears are ringing a little. I&#8217;m aware that soon it will be the date of the birth of the man who fathered me. A strange time. A strange time of year too. Dreams and reality. The year turns. Lots of things tire me. \u00a0Riddles in the dark. \u00a0Bipolar is like a tv \u00a0programme. You never know what an episode may bring. Do I still write this for myself now I wonder? I&#8217;ve wondered today about not writing anymore. I&#8217;ve said lots. \u00a0Is there more to say? Maybe I&#8217;ll talk about death. Death is avoided by most. Well the subject is not the actual dying. We all die. \u00a0We don&#8217;t all get to choose how or when we die. Is suicide really so bad? Is it really so far out there in societies &#8216;norms&#8217; so as to be frowned upon? We all die. We will all be dead one day. I wonder what I wonder? Hmmm I wonder. \u00a0Wonderful wondrous wonder. \u00a0It&#8217;s all shit and bullshit.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"The Doors - Riders On The Storm (ORIGINAL!) - driving with Jim\" width=\"474\" height=\"267\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/lS-af9Q-zvQ?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m tired. It&#8217;s only 8:08pm and I&#8217;m tired. I could sleep. I&#8217;ve noticed my thoughts are a little faster. My ears are ringing a little. I&#8217;m aware that soon it will be the date of the birth of the man who fathered me. A strange time. A strange time of year too. Dreams and reality. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1766\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Tiredness and energy<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1766","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1766"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1766"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1766\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1768,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1766\/revisions\/1768"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1766"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1766"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1766"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}