{"id":1809,"date":"2017-11-16T10:28:34","date_gmt":"2017-11-16T10:28:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1809"},"modified":"2017-11-16T10:28:34","modified_gmt":"2017-11-16T10:28:34","slug":"missing-episodes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1809","title":{"rendered":"Missing episodes?"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m sitting here taking a quick break and pondering if I miss episodes. I know it\u2019s possible that one can come along anytime but what\u2019s got me thinking is that I\u2019m very very productive at the minute, I\u2019m working really smart, I\u2019m pushing things along, things are going really well, I\u2019ve realised how far I\u2019ve come and how much effort it\u2019s teally taken to get here and I\u2019m planning a few things ahead in the future once I\u2019ve cleared lots of debt. So it\u2019s made me think how I might be, or where I might be, if I were in an episode.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Initially I missed the high that I lived in most of the time once I levelled out but then being level grew on me and my normal energy levels came back but without any craziness. I don\u2019t miss mixed states AT ALL! I don\u2019t miss deep depression that has lasted for several months. I don\u2019t miss the really crazy mania either. <\/strong><\/p>\n

What has amazed me is that my future plans do encompass some of what I tried to do while high, like buying land etc and moving, but it\u2019s a future plan rather than \u2018fuck it I\u2019m selling our house, we\u2019re buying a farm, I\u2019m going to climb Everest, buy an Audi R8 and fuck it all!\u2019 \u00a0Now it\u2019s a lot of careful planning, lots of goals for each day, week, month and year by year. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

I know I have lots of subscribers yet I don\u2019t know how many actually read this. \u00a0For those who do I sincerely hope you get level. I want you to know it is possible. \u00a0I want you to try making some goals. And I want to help. I hope that I do help. \u00a0When I first blogged I figured if I could reach and help one other person it would be worth it just by sharing where I am and how I am. \u00a0The last 10 years have been shocking, horrific, amazing, crazy, mind blowing and very scary but I think it\u2019s helped me more than I yet know. \u00a0I don\u2019t want to go through it again but if I do get unwell I have lots of things in place. <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 I wonder how I could help others even more? \u00a0Maybe just keeping going and writing is helpful. \u00a0Who knows? I wish you all a good day and that you keep going because it can, with hard work, get better. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m sitting here taking a quick break and pondering if I miss episodes. I know it\u2019s possible that one can come along anytime but what\u2019s got me thinking is that I\u2019m very very productive at the minute, I\u2019m working really smart, I\u2019m pushing things along, things are going really well, I\u2019ve realised how far I\u2019ve … Continue reading Missing episodes?<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1809","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1809"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1809"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1809\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1810,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1809\/revisions\/1810"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1809"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1809"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1809"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}