{"id":1879,"date":"2018-06-14T05:26:55","date_gmt":"2018-06-14T05:26:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1879"},"modified":"2018-06-14T05:26:55","modified_gmt":"2018-06-14T05:26:55","slug":"life-and-things","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1879","title":{"rendered":"Life and things"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’m tired a lot lately and I’m sleeping lots. \u00a0I had a short bout of depression, it’s lingering a bit, recently too. \u00a0The last couple of mornings I’ve woken up with some pain in my chest but that could just be linked to hayfever but I’m not sure. \u00a0My neighbour is being a bit of a dick. \u00a0The other day he cut part of our hedge out the front. It’s not over his side. \u00a0It’s the road side. \u00a0It’s where there’s a foot path. A path nobody uses and it hung over about 3-4″. \u00a0What a dickhead. \u00a0He didn’t even cut it all. \u00a0Then yesterday morning he took traffic cones from his front drive, yes he puts cones across his drive…., and put them outside his daughters, who lives the other side of us, in the road so it was awkward to get out of our drive. \u00a0They were in the road. \u00a0What a bellend. \u00a0It’s at times like these I think I’d to move \u00a0but we like it here on the whole and one day he will be dead. \u00a0When he pisses me off I wish it would happen sooner and yes I know that sounds nasty but he’s not a nice person at all. In fact he’s a racist, sexist homophobic prick. \u00a0 I’m always polite to him though and try to kill him with kindness. \u00a0I’ve no idea what has gone on in his life when he was younger. <\/strong><\/p>\n

I’ve been dwelling a lot on my dad and how he died. Mostly I’ve thought about the last week of his life. I’m not sure why either. \u00a0I guess it’s how my brain works in that when something gets on top of me everything else my brain can throw at me to beat me up mentally it does. \u00a0I question it now though and I also mostly change thought patterns.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 I’m still awaiting a date for my operation and maybe this also is playing on my mind. \u00a0 Something that has struck me lately is that I don’t have friends anymore. \u00a0None. I do have my close family that I love but that’s different. \u00a0I guess I’ve isolated myself from old friends and all of the bullshit that comes with it. \u00a0I guess I’m tired of average too so live quite isolated in that respect. \u00a0I know lots of people but keep distance. \u00a0Maybe it’s a safety mechanism. \u00a0In fact I’m sure it is along with self punishment and also not wanting them in my head or their complications. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’m tired a lot lately and I’m sleeping lots. \u00a0I had a short bout of depression, it’s lingering a bit, recently too. \u00a0The last couple of mornings I’ve woken up with some pain in my chest but that could just be linked to hayfever but I’m not sure. \u00a0My neighbour is being a bit of … Continue reading Life and things<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1879","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1879"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1879"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1879\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1880,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1879\/revisions\/1880"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1879"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1879"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1879"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}