{"id":1881,"date":"2018-07-03T14:56:17","date_gmt":"2018-07-03T14:56:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1881"},"modified":"2018-07-03T14:56:17","modified_gmt":"2018-07-03T14:56:17","slug":"a-slip-perhaps","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1881","title":{"rendered":"A slip perhaps"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m not feeling too motivated and not feeling like I can be arsed with much. \u00a0Work is busy but mixed at the minute. One job I\u2019ve been doing have asked me to do more pretty much straight away. I agreed and rearranged work accordingly but now I\u2019m not sure if everything will be here tomorrow and if not I can\u2019t get on. I\u2019ll take a few days off. I can\u2019t be arsed either way.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I had a drink Saturday night. \u00a0It\u2019s affected me and I feel crap. I feel depressed or the start of it. \u00a0Stupidly I drank last night too. Drink hits me a few days later and affects my mental health. I\u2019ll feel really shit later in the week once last night hits too. \u00a0I\u2019m stupid. I know it affects me. \u00a0Self punishment. \u00a0Again. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Earlier I felt like I was breaking. Maybe I am. My plans from late last year have gone to shit. I\u2019m still in my business overdraft. I\u2019m still in my personal overdraft. It sucks. The harder I work the worse it seems. \u00a0I think I\u2019m still broken from a couple of years ago and that shit still fucks me up. \u00a0Shit doesn\u2019t go away for me. I guess it does for others. Lucky fuckers.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m not feeling too motivated and not feeling like I can be arsed with much. \u00a0Work is busy but mixed at the minute. One job I\u2019ve been doing have asked me to do more pretty much straight away. I agreed and rearranged work accordingly but now I\u2019m not sure if everything will be here tomorrow … Continue reading A slip perhaps<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1881","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1881"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1881"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1881\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1882,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1881\/revisions\/1882"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1881"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1881"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1881"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}