{"id":1900,"date":"2018-08-28T19:03:26","date_gmt":"2018-08-28T19:03:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1900"},"modified":"2018-08-28T19:03:26","modified_gmt":"2018-08-28T19:03:26","slug":"life-and-debt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1900","title":{"rendered":"Life and debt"},"content":{"rendered":"

I think I have to face the fact that no matter how hard I work I will always be in debt. \u00a0I had plans laid out at the end of last year to be well ahead by now yet it\u2019s the opposite. I\u2019m not ahead. I\u2019m \u00a36 off the limit of my \u00a310k business overdraft. It\u2019s not the first time it\u2019s been like this and I know I\u2019ll claw my way back again and get money in but it\u2019s endless. It\u2019s constant. No matter how hard or long I work something always comes along that costs me money just as things look better. \u00a0It\u2019s not my attitude to things as I always keep going and pushing. I always try to keep smiling and try to outwardly just be what others think they see. Inside it\u2019s often a different story. The whole idea of wurking hard gets you ahead is bollocks. It\u2019s a rigged system. It\u2019s rigged to keep poor people poor, to keep those who are just about comfortably off in debt enough to keep pushing but mostly it\u2019s about making the rich even richer. \u00a0It\u2019s rigged that way. With as hard as you want but you\u2019ll still get had somewhere. \u00a0Regardless I\u2019ll keep going and keep pushing. \u00a0I have no other choice. \u00a0I\u2019ll die young from some illness brought on by stress and debt. \u00a0People will say I worked hard or too hard. \u00a0They\u2019ll say this and that. They\u2019ll project their owns fears outwards. \u00a0The truth is most of us are over our heads but we fool ourselves into thinking, or saying, that we\u2019re better off than this or that person. We do it to keep ourselves sane\/insane and to keep going instead of folding and realising the truth. \u00a0It all sucks donkeys. \u00a0Fuck it all is what I say.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I think I have to face the fact that no matter how hard I work I will always be in debt. \u00a0I had plans laid out at the end of last year to be well ahead by now yet it\u2019s the opposite. I\u2019m not ahead. I\u2019m \u00a36 off the limit of my \u00a310k business overdraft. … Continue reading Life and debt<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1900","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1900"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1900"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1900\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1901,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1900\/revisions\/1901"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1900"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1900"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1900"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}