{"id":1905,"date":"2018-09-17T17:38:03","date_gmt":"2018-09-17T17:38:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1905"},"modified":"2018-09-17T17:38:03","modified_gmt":"2018-09-17T17:38:03","slug":"tired-slightly-down-op","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1905","title":{"rendered":"Tired. Slightly down. Op"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I\u2019m tired and I\u2019m low on energy. Some of it is down to bipolar, some of it is down to having to work my tits off yet again just trying to stay afloat and some of it is down to my gallstone. Today I\u2019ve had slight rumblings in my right side caused by the gallstone. All of the above play on each other. \u00a0I\u2019ve popped in to do some work after finishing work, yes it doesn\u2019t make that much sense really but it does too. \u00a0I\u2019m broke in all ways. I will recover again yet I\u2019m sure. I\u2019m fighting hard to just stay afloat but also to get slightly ahead as I\u2019ve got a date for the operation to remove my gallbladder. I\u2019m in to be operated on on 12th October. Part of my brain is telling me I\u2019ll die in the op. The other part, the rational part, is telling me it\u2019s just a normal procedure and everything will be fine. My paranoia is playing up with me over it. \u00a0It\u2019s something I\u2019ll just have to live with. \u00a0If it\u2019s straight forwards keyhole surgery I\u2019ll be off work for 2 weeks. If they have to switch to open surgery, highly unlikely, I\u2019ll be off work for up to 10 weeks. \u00a02 weeks off I can almost survive financially. \u00a0Almost. Up to 10 weeks and we\u2019re fucked. \u00a0Stress rises inside. \u00a0I\u2019m still working out with Fynn and regaining muscle and strength and it should help with recovery. \u00a0Regardless my mood isn\u2019t the best it could be. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Metallica - Fade to black lyrics\" width=\"474\" height=\"356\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/wpq7wn2YPYU?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m tired and I\u2019m low on energy. Some of it is down to bipolar, some of it is down to having to work my tits off yet again just trying to stay afloat and some of it is down to my gallstone. Today I\u2019ve had slight rumblings in my right side caused by the gallstone. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1905\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Tired. Slightly down. Op<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1905","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1905"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1905"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1905\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1906,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1905\/revisions\/1906"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1905"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1905"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1905"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}