{"id":1963,"date":"2019-04-03T05:15:32","date_gmt":"2019-04-03T05:15:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1963"},"modified":"2019-04-03T05:15:32","modified_gmt":"2019-04-03T05:15:32","slug":"too-much-stress","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1963","title":{"rendered":"Too much stress"},"content":{"rendered":"

My life is far too stressful. \u00a0I\u2019ve had enough of it. I woke up before 5am with huge anxiety this morning. One of our cats sat on me because I\u2019d woken up. \u00a0I’m chasing money yet again. Every year I tell myself it will be different, I\u2019m certain this year will be, but it seems like Groundhog Day over and over. \u00a0I\u2019m tired of the stress, tired of working so much, tired of how much of my mental capacity is taken up by it all. \u00a0I feel I never relax. I never take time off for a break from it. \u00a0It will be the death of me. \u00a0I see others around me who seem to do so much better and work much less. \u00a0I can\u2019t figure it out. \u00a0Nothing makes sense anymore. \u00a0I\u2019m sure it will pass. \u00a0I hate all of the fucking clich\u00e9s people quote. \u00a0They\u2019re shit. \u00a0Bipolar does my fucking head in. Nothing makes sense most of the time. \u00a0What\u2019s the difference between being well and thinking you\u2019re well? Delusion. Does anyone actually have their shit together? \u00a0My memory isn\u2019t great again. \u00a0So much to get on with. I put myself down and each day I kill myself a little bit more.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

My life is far too stressful. \u00a0I\u2019ve had enough of it. I woke up before 5am with huge anxiety this morning. One of our cats sat on me because I\u2019d woken up. \u00a0I’m chasing money yet again. Every year I tell myself it will be different, I\u2019m certain this year will be, but it seems … Continue reading Too much stress<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1963","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1963"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1963"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1963\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1964,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1963\/revisions\/1964"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1963"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1963"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1963"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}