{"id":1975,"date":"2019-04-16T06:42:57","date_gmt":"2019-04-16T06:42:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1975"},"modified":"2019-04-16T06:42:57","modified_gmt":"2019-04-16T06:42:57","slug":"anxiety-is-a-bitch","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1975","title":{"rendered":"Anxiety is a bitch"},"content":{"rendered":"

Huge anxiety again over several things. I\u2019m still awaiting a payment from someone. There\u2019s a couple of snags on a job that are easily sorted but also one which I can\u2019t get my head around. Money is non existent and I\u2019ve still not paid the mortgage. People think running a business is a money making machine but a very small business is often far from that. \u00a0It\u2019s famine and feast with mostly famine. \u00a0I\u2019m not sure what I can do to change things as my head isn\u2019t quite right. \u00a0I\u2019ve got meds again and am seriously considering going up to a slightly higher dose again. \u00a0I\u2019ll see once they kick in again at this dose. Death is strong in my mind in many ways. \u00a0A friend phoned last night to check on me. \u00a0I\u2019ve not had that happen before. \u00a0I\u2019m touched by it. \u00a0He\u2019s a good guy. \u00a0I\u2019m just not used to it I guess. \u00a0I walk a lonely path. Maybe it\u2019s time to broaden that pathway.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Huge anxiety again over several things. I\u2019m still awaiting a payment from someone. There\u2019s a couple of snags on a job that are easily sorted but also one which I can\u2019t get my head around. Money is non existent and I\u2019ve still not paid the mortgage. People think running a business is a money making … Continue reading Anxiety is a bitch<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1975","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1975"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1975"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1975\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1976,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1975\/revisions\/1976"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1975"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1975"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1975"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}