{"id":1982,"date":"2019-05-09T05:53:34","date_gmt":"2019-05-09T05:53:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1982"},"modified":"2019-05-09T05:54:56","modified_gmt":"2019-05-09T05:54:56","slug":"lifes-vulnerabilities","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1982","title":{"rendered":"Life\u2019s vulnerabilities"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve just started reading a very interesting book about the interconnectedness of trees and how they share sugars, information and so forth through their fungal networks underground and through releasing chemicals into the air when attacked. \u00a0I\u2019ve know about this for quite some time but the book was a gift I received last week when at my stepdaughters wedding, which was amazing. \u00a0Having read a little I felt memories of my earlier life flood through and into me like a \u2018download\u2019 or a jump back in time. \u00a0Mostly it involved my mum. It brought up the emotions of those times for myself and made me wonder what she must of felt too. \u00a0Memories of going into a toy shop in Oakham, where she moved too, and the play park area there which we used to walk through to go into the town. \u00a0Lots of high running emotionally charged feels flooded to the fore. \u00a0I wonder how she must of felt each time I stayed with her and when she had to drop me back home in North Norfolk. \u00a0It must of been a rollercoaster for her. \u00a0The excitement that I was coming to visit followed by the harsh reality that I would be leaving again. \u00a0The feelings of knowing she would have to drop me off and drive away and leave me again, like she had when she walked out. \u00a0It also hit me that she still did this time and time again. \u00a0That even though I sensed it as how she felt it it brought up exactly how I felt each time, dropped off and deserted. \u00a0It\u2019s shown me how complicated the early years of my life really were and nothing was ever really explained to me. \u00a0It\u2019s shown me yet again why the psychologist added complex PTSD to the bipolar diagnosis. \u00a0It\u2019s funny how when things are going well something from the past rears it\u2019s head yet again. \u00a0That\u2019s life I guess. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve just started reading a very interesting book about the interconnectedness of trees and how they share sugars, information and so forth through their fungal networks underground and through releasing chemicals into the air when attacked. \u00a0I\u2019ve know about this for quite some time but the book was a gift I received last week when … Continue reading Life\u2019s vulnerabilities<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1982","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1982"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1982"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1982\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1985,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1982\/revisions\/1985"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1982"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1982"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1982"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}