{"id":1995,"date":"2019-06-17T18:36:54","date_gmt":"2019-06-17T18:36:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1995"},"modified":"2019-06-17T18:36:54","modified_gmt":"2019-06-17T18:36:54","slug":"phew","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1995","title":{"rendered":"Phew&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Well I\u2019m glad that it\u2019s a new week. \u00a0I\u2019m back working properly today. \u00a0I\u2019ve not slept today and not needed to, nor yesterday. \u00a0Normal sleep will resume tonight. \u00a0My mood is brighter too. \u00a0Last week I was lower than I cared to think about. \u00a0Suicidal thoughts crept in a lot. \u00a0I just wanted to go to sleep forever. \u00a0I tried meditating on what death must be like but my energy was so low I just fell into deep sleep. \u00a0I\u2019ve started working out again today. \u00a0I need to get my body back in proper shape. \u00a0I need to get healthier. \u00a0It\u2019ll help my mind too. \u00a0I\u2019m just relieved the shittyness was only just over a week. \u00a0Thank fuck for it being over. \u00a0I\u2019ve even priced some work tonight. \u00a0I survive, or at least I have so far. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Well I\u2019m glad that it\u2019s a new week. \u00a0I\u2019m back working properly today. \u00a0I\u2019ve not slept today and not needed to, nor yesterday. \u00a0Normal sleep will resume tonight. \u00a0My mood is brighter too. \u00a0Last week I was lower than I cared to think about. \u00a0Suicidal thoughts crept in a lot. \u00a0I just wanted to go &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=1995\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Phew&#8230;<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1995","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1995"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1995"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1995\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1996,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1995\/revisions\/1996"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1995"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1995"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1995"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}