{"id":2091,"date":"2020-06-07T10:04:41","date_gmt":"2020-06-07T10:04:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2091"},"modified":"2020-06-07T10:04:41","modified_gmt":"2020-06-07T10:04:41","slug":"its-been-a-while","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2091","title":{"rendered":"It\u2019s been a while"},"content":{"rendered":"

It\u2019s been quite some time since I\u2019ve posted in here and a lot has changed in the world. \u00a0We\u2019ve been kind of locked down here in the UK but restrictions are easing. \u00a0The lockdown has shown up that it\u2019s highly likely my daughter has bipolar too. \u00a0Her sleep has become erratic. She\u2019s often showing signs of hypomania and anger or depression at others too. \u00a0It\u2019s seriously affected her even if it\u2019s just down to the restrictions. \u00a0I\u2019ve carried on working right through as I\u2019m working on renovating an empty annex. \u00a0I\u2019d foreseen we would go into lockdown so was mentally prepared and physically prepared too. \u00a0I knew something was brewing from autumn last year. \u00a0It\u2019s affected me a bit too. \u00a0I initially found myself obsessing over the virus and where it could lead us. There will no doubt be a second wave from late September\/October onwards so I suggest getting extra food supplies in. \u00a0I also think the food supply chain could be affected by it and shortages of food grown could be a reality too. \u00a0One thing what has shown up from this is how our house isn\u2019t as happy as I\u2019d like it to be. \u00a0There\u2019s a hell of a lot of underlying issues here. \u00a0Especially between my wife and myself. \u00a0Often things are very cold and it\u2019s like I\u2019m punished, and have been for years and years, so I need to reassess things in the not too distant future. \u00a0I\u2019m 45 and not sure I can live the rest of my life sexless and lacking closeness. \u00a0I\u2019ve tried to cope with it for 10 or so years now and it\u2019s not getting easier. \u00a0Resentments grow. I guess with my daughter showing early signs of her mh suffering I\u2019ll have to seriously consider my choices in life for now. \u00a0I\u2019ll ponder lots first but I hate feeling like I\u2019m always in the way, or unwelcome, \u00a0in my own home, the home I\u2019m mostly paying all of the bills for at that!\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It\u2019s been quite some time since I\u2019ve posted in here and a lot has changed in the world. \u00a0We\u2019ve been kind of locked down here in the UK but restrictions are easing. \u00a0The lockdown has shown up that it\u2019s highly likely my daughter has bipolar too. \u00a0Her sleep has become erratic. She\u2019s often showing signs … Continue reading It\u2019s been a while<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2091","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2091"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2091"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2091\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2092,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2091\/revisions\/2092"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2091"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2091"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2091"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}