{"id":2133,"date":"2021-01-27T19:15:15","date_gmt":"2021-01-27T19:15:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2133"},"modified":"2021-01-27T19:15:15","modified_gmt":"2021-01-27T19:15:15","slug":"up-and-down","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2133","title":{"rendered":"Up and down"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>It\u2019s a year of up and down so far. Stress too. \u00a0Things could be better my mind weighs heavily on itself. \u00a0Sometimes I wish I wasn\u2019t me. \u00a0More so lately. \u00a0Not good. \u00a0Death fixation\/fantasies. \u00a0Hmmm. \u00a0What is it all. \u00a0So far so good so what. \u00a0One day I\u2019ll Rust in Peace unless I Ride The Lightening to The Number of The Beast. \u00a0It\u2019s bit of a cunt over analysing oneself. \u00a0I guess I\u2019m one of the Children of the Damned. \u00a0Tired so often these days. \u00a0I\u2019ve had weeks of very very vivid dreams. \u00a0The other night I had David Bowie singing for me but it was in a code or different language. \u00a0He had 2 big rotten front teeth. \u00a0It\u2019s was pretty esoteric. \u00a0I need to figure it out. \u00a0I\u2019ve been dreaming about other dead people too, family members included. \u00a0One day I\u2019ll go home, wherever that is. \u00a0I\u2019ll find it. \u00a0Crackdown lockdown kickdown blockdown blah blah blah. \u00a0We are all SERIOUSLY fucked if we don\u2019t fight back. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It\u2019s a year of up and down so far. Stress too. \u00a0Things could be better my mind weighs heavily on itself. \u00a0Sometimes I wish I wasn\u2019t me. \u00a0More so lately. \u00a0Not good. \u00a0Death fixation\/fantasies. \u00a0Hmmm. \u00a0What is it all. \u00a0So far so good so what. \u00a0One day I\u2019ll Rust in Peace unless I Ride The &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2133\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Up and down<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2133","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2133"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2133"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2133\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2134,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2133\/revisions\/2134"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2133"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2133"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2133"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}