{"id":2143,"date":"2021-05-28T06:29:07","date_gmt":"2021-05-28T06:29:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2143"},"modified":"2021-05-28T06:29:07","modified_gmt":"2021-05-28T06:29:07","slug":"shit-thats-thrown-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2143","title":{"rendered":"Shit that\u2019s thrown me"},"content":{"rendered":"

yesterday I had a conversation with my mother in law. \u00a0Several things came up, one of which was something my mum told her years ago and told her not to tell me. She\u2019s been dead 13 years and I think it was quite some time before that that she told my mother in law. My Mother in law thought about telling me a couple of years ago but the time and opportunity never arose. \u00a0It\u2019s shocking how a few sentences about things that happened when I was 6 or 7 have raked up a lot of memories. \u00a0Memories that were suppressed but some of them came back almost instantly. Talk about huge emotional build up in an instant! A few sentences that threw light on so many things and there will be many more memories that crop up. \u00a0Much more makes sense about my earlier life but it\u2019s also started more confusion too. \u00a0I had very vivid dreams last night about people who died years ago. \u00a0I\u2019ve woken up this morning to a slight headache and my ears are ringing badly. \u00a0I feel like although I slept I was actually awake in my dreams or I another reality. \u00a0So much more to figure out. \u00a0I think I need time away from lots of things to digest it all. \u00a0Sometimes we know ourselves pretty fully but don\u2019t know about things that shaped that person from childhood. \u00a0More memories creep back in. \u00a0This shit is around 40 years ago but will maybe haunt me forever. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

yesterday I had a conversation with my mother in law. \u00a0Several things came up, one of which was something my mum told her years ago and told her not to tell me. She\u2019s been dead 13 years and I think it was quite some time before that that she told my mother in law. My … Continue reading Shit that\u2019s thrown me<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2143","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2143"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2143"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2143\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2144,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2143\/revisions\/2144"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2143"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2143"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2143"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}