{"id":2145,"date":"2021-07-18T19:07:56","date_gmt":"2021-07-18T19:07:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2145"},"modified":"2021-07-18T19:07:56","modified_gmt":"2021-07-18T19:07:56","slug":"discipline","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2145","title":{"rendered":"Discipline"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Ive realised I\u2019m not as disciplined as I should be. I don\u2019t meditate enough. I must meditate more to rid myself of the sheer sexual frustration I have. Loving in a sexless marriage isn\u2019t easy and it\u2019s not going to go away. I\u2019m 46 and have realised I very soon need to make some serious decisions about my life. Can I survive the rest of it living in a sexless intimacy lacking marriage? Hmmm. My wife has told me she has zero interest in sex or intimacy and it won\u2019t change. \u00a0It\u2019s a cruel twist of fate in life and one that I seriously struggle with. \u00a0I feel selfish for thinking like this but how can, or should, one person decide what both people in a relationship will or will not do in that regard. I\u2019m having to question how dead a relationship has to be for it to reach that level.<br \/>\n<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I think I need to meditate a lot more and need to bring much more discipline into my life again. \u00a0Magick seems to be calling me again too. \u00a0Maybe life is starting to show me a way forwards now. \u00a0I must ponder on this all much more I think. \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ive realised I\u2019m not as disciplined as I should be. I don\u2019t meditate enough. I must meditate more to rid myself of the sheer sexual frustration I have. Loving in a sexless marriage isn\u2019t easy and it\u2019s not going to go away. I\u2019m 46 and have realised I very soon need to make some serious &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=2145\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Discipline<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2145","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2145"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2145"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2145\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2146,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2145\/revisions\/2146"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2145"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2145"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2145"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}