In my life I\u2019ve fucked so many things up but I keep going and pushing ahead. The last 10 months or so have been the most trying of my life but whereas I\u2019d normally be self depreciating in the past and say what a cunt I was and how it\u2019s all poor me I\u2019ve grown and moved past that. The last 10 months I\u2019ve not only worked on pushing my business and life but I\u2019ve been working on self too. Right now I have to take full responsibility for all of my past actions and fuck ups or else I will stay stagnated, or keep the same loop running, in my life. It\u2019s not easy but it\u2019s the only way I can keep growing and grow up. My plans for the future remain the same, ie get vastly wealthy, have a lot of money to retire and live off grid. Instead of those things being a distant dream I am working and planning to make them a reality. I\u2019ve burnt so many bridges the last year and it really hurts. Instead of hiding away and refusing to take much blame I am putting my hands up and saying \u201cyes it was me. I fucked it all up. I hurt too many people that are close to me. I took out my childishness on others because I didn\u2019t know any other way\u201d. It\u2019s the only way I can grow as a person. It\u2019s funny that I\u2019m writing this out, I wasn\u2019t going to because actions speak much more than words. In the past I would\u2019ve just used words. I can\u2019t be weak anymore. In fact I have to be strong. I\u2019m going to put right as many wrongs as I can and that will not be an easy thing to do. I\u2019ve hurt those who are closest to me and will take responsibility for that. I\u2019ve also realised it all started with the death of my mum and I had never got over that. That grief is finally coming out. I always thought I had to be a man and just carry it but grief simply destroys things if shut away in the dark recess\u2019 of one\u2019s mind. I hardly blog these days because of the work I have been doing and am still doing both physically and mentally. I will also have to start forgiving myself. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
In my life I\u2019ve fucked so many things up but I keep going and pushing ahead. The last 10 months or so have been the most trying of my life but whereas I\u2019d normally be self depreciating in the past and say what a cunt I was and how it\u2019s all poor me I\u2019ve grown … Continue reading Life and it\u2019s fuck ups<\/span>