Monday, Tuesday and this morning, to an extent, I woke with anxiety or maybe that should be anxiety woke me up. Something happened at the weekend which was uncalled for and has set off alarm bells and red flags for me. The last year or so I\u2019ve not really had anxiety at all but events at the weekend triggered past thought patterns, or past coping mechanisms, to crop back up and they\u2019re not good past thought patterns either. Interestingly my thinking process had started to revert back to old default settings too. Thankfully I\u2019ve realised this and am thinking differently again, stoically again, because of the ground work I\u2019ve put in. However I cannot ignore the things that set it off. After ending my marriage I set out clear rules for myself and my life and those rules are now being tested, or have been tested. I\u2019m sitting at a crossroads and now taking some time to weigh up the roads ahead that are open to me. I have to do this with logic, and my rules, rather than emotional thinking which is something I couldn\u2019t do in the past. It\u2019s very interesting to note it too. There\u2019s also been a situation at work that has put stress onto me and that also triggered past thinking. A week ago I would\u2019ve looked at it it differently to how I did yesterday but today I\u2019m back to looking at it with my new eyes and mindset, like I would have last week. This is all very interesting because it\u2019s shown me the power of our own minds when they\u2019ve been trained for a year or two. A few short years ago these events, over the last few days, would likely have triggered a bipolar episode and reactions coming from emotional attachment. I\u2019ve moved on from that though and have to continue with my new settings which I\u2019ve programmed in so to speak. This leads me to ponder on something I\u2019ve thought about for a while now which is mentoring others. Initially I thought about mostly business mentoring coupled with life\/mindset. Maybe it\u2019s time to start helping others who really do want to better themselves and their lives. I\u2019d be interested in finding more people to mentor. Hmmmm. Very interesting. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Monday, Tuesday and this morning, to an extent, I woke with anxiety or maybe that should be anxiety woke me up. Something happened at the weekend which was uncalled for and has set off alarm bells and red flags for me. The last year or so I\u2019ve not really had anxiety at all but events … Continue reading Oh hello anxiety and past thinking<\/span>