{"id":391,"date":"2014-05-22T05:29:10","date_gmt":"2014-05-22T05:29:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=391"},"modified":"2014-05-22T05:31:27","modified_gmt":"2014-05-22T05:31:27","slug":"fears","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=391","title":{"rendered":"Fears"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve realised that I fear lots of things in life. I fear the unknown and change at times. I try not to, but I have to face the fact that I do. I’ve kept myself stuck at times rather than letting myself fly, but flying scares me. The unknown element of it scares me lots. Decisions scare me too. I put things off hoping that they will either go away or that they will be ok in the end. I fear not making changes too. I fear getting old and looking back at the things I was too scared to do and longing for the answers that those changes may of brought. Life doesn’t have a fast forward or rewind button either, which is a shame. I’ve been called selfish in the past but usually I worry about others more than they know. I worry that I’m slowly killing others inside or I worry that I’m not doing enough of some things. I fear wrong choices because in the recent past in my business I’ve made huge errors. So although I’m usually very positive I do have fears. I’ve never traveled outside the UK because mentally I’ve not been able to handle the idea of the details for fear of getting something wrong.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I’m at a time in my life where I need to make changes, to get rid of my fears, to live fully, to face those fears head on….but what if I make mistakes, can I handle that? \u00a0I always try to do the right thing by others, sometimes far more than they’ll ever know. Maybe I’m just a shell, not enough of a man. I know that only I can really decide on what it is I need or what it is that I must face, what fears I should deal with. Maybe I need to talk to someone outside of my normal life. Maybe I should call someone who used to give me counselling.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’ve realised that I fear lots of things in life. I fear the unknown and change at times. I try not to, but I have to face the fact that I do. I’ve kept myself stuck at times rather than letting myself fly, but flying scares me. The unknown element of it scares me lots. … Continue reading Fears<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-391","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/391"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=391"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/391\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":393,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/391\/revisions\/393"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=391"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=391"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=391"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}