{"id":428,"date":"2014-06-01T09:31:15","date_gmt":"2014-06-01T09:31:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=428"},"modified":"2014-06-01T09:31:15","modified_gmt":"2014-06-01T09:31:15","slug":"beautiful-day-outside-but-crazy-in-my-head","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=428","title":{"rendered":"Beautiful day outside but crazy in my head"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>It&#8217;s a lovely sunny day outside, but in my head I&#8217;m feeling the strain a bit. I&#8217;m ok, I&#8217;m good actually, but I&#8217;m feeling the strain. The more I try to control things the harder it gets. I guess I kind of go up a level each time. I will win out though. Each battle I have the more I learn and can hopefully make progress. Hopefully I can try to share my thoughts down here for future reference. The hard part is when things are going great I don&#8217;t write too much, so I need to remember that. \u00a0Working out is keeping in me in check pretty well and I&#8217;m loving the strength I have in my body again. I&#8217;m growing pretty well, although I am getting kind of caught up in weighing myself a fair bit. I think I need to get more fluids on board more often too.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Where will I lead myself? Will I find a balance? Or happiness ? \u00a0I think so. Make it so.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>It&#8217;s not easy being me. The good bits are excellent. Most of it is good. I do feel like a stranger sometimes though. A stranger in a strange world. \u00a0My dreams have been very vivid lately too. I think I remember a H.P.Lovecraft story that I need to go read.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s a lovely sunny day outside, but in my head I&#8217;m feeling the strain a bit. I&#8217;m ok, I&#8217;m good actually, but I&#8217;m feeling the strain. The more I try to control things the harder it gets. I guess I kind of go up a level each time. I will win out though. Each battle &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=428\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Beautiful day outside but crazy in my head<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-428","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/428"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=428"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/428\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":429,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/428\/revisions\/429"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=428"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=428"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=428"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}