{"id":439,"date":"2014-06-04T05:44:25","date_gmt":"2014-06-04T05:44:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=439"},"modified":"2014-06-04T05:44:25","modified_gmt":"2014-06-04T05:44:25","slug":"feeling-good-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=439","title":{"rendered":"Feeling good"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’m feeling good this morning. I had a long day yesterday but a good day. I was tired last night but a good kind of tired. Sometimes I can be tired in a different way, kind of emotionally tired but physically ok or physically tired but really mentally wired. Being physically tired but wired is the worst for me. I lay down and toss and turn, my body temperature starts going up too. In fact when I am headed that way during the day my temperature can go up. Anyway, today I’m good.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

People affect me more than I have realised in the past. At least I know now. I love talking with people even though I can be nervous inside. Older people can be fantastic as they have an understanding of life and its preciousness. I guess everybody has something to give. Sometimes I feel so very alone inside myself. Maybe it’s like being a mannequin in a shop window, you can see everyone but there’s a thin layer that separates them from me, I can hear and see them but they just look a little and drift by. And like the mannequin, I can’t talk or reach out. Luckily I’m feeling more human these last few days.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Normally when I feel ok I don’t write as much as when I’m not good, but I’ve decided that maybe it’s the best time to find some answers. If I can describe the feelings without feeling them as much maybe it’ll help me.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’m feeling good this morning. I had a long day yesterday but a good day. I was tired last night but a good kind of tired. Sometimes I can be tired in a different way, kind of emotionally tired but physically ok or physically tired but really mentally wired. Being physically tired but wired is … Continue reading Feeling good<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-439","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/439"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=439"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/439\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":440,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/439\/revisions\/440"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=439"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=439"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=439"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}