{"id":446,"date":"2014-06-06T05:37:54","date_gmt":"2014-06-06T05:37:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=446"},"modified":"2014-06-06T05:37:54","modified_gmt":"2014-06-06T05:37:54","slug":"circles-in-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=446","title":{"rendered":"Circles in life"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve been up since just after 5 this morning. I’ve meditated a fair bit too. I’m certain that my life is a series of circles, I go around and around and around. I need to break that circle. I fear the uncertainty though. I guess I’ve built so many fears into my life, I think it’s time I faced them and moved forwards. I strive to be happy, but always feel that there’s something missing, not a physical object or possession but an inner something. Maybe it’s love. Maybe I need to be able to love myself. To be able to understand myself fully and not fear things. I always feel like I’m trying to escape something. Maybe that something is me, myself. I have to take full control of myself again, of my life. I feel like I’m selfish, but people don’t realise how much I put others first. I think I’ve hurt myself so that I protect others, but in so doing I actually hurt them too. If only I had all of the answers. I’ve read that it’s a fool who think he has all of the answers. Maybe I’m far from that fool as I have lots of questions. I know I need to love myself though. I hold myself in. I need.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’ve been up since just after 5 this morning. I’ve meditated a fair bit too. I’m certain that my life is a series of circles, I go around and around and around. I need to break that circle. I fear the uncertainty though. I guess I’ve built so many fears into my life, I think … Continue reading Circles in life<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-446","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/446"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=446"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/446\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":447,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/446\/revisions\/447"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=446"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=446"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=446"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}