{"id":450,"date":"2014-06-07T15:38:34","date_gmt":"2014-06-07T15:38:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=450"},"modified":"2014-06-07T15:38:34","modified_gmt":"2014-06-07T15:38:34","slug":"fear","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=450","title":{"rendered":"Fear"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Why do I fear so many things? Do I really fear things? Do I build up too much expectation and then fear failure? \u00a0What do I really seek? I know I seek my own enlightenment. I know I have remained hidden from view, from others, from socialising for a long while. \u00a0I have to take back whatever control I have let myself give up. I can and will do it. I will beat any mental illness that I have. I want to. I won&#8217;t let it define me or beat me down anymore.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I&#8217;ve been at breaking point recently, possibly for the last few years. I am getting clarity of vision now. I don&#8217;t know where I&#8217;m headed at times but I will win out. The only thing that is a slight concern is that I am willing to push my own boundaries. I push to find myself and to find my limits. A fear I have is that I&#8217;m limitless. I practice ritual magic on and off and am quite proficient at it. I&#8217;ve done a few rituals this last week.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>I feel trapped lately. I need to find out in what way though. I will win through.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Why do I fear so many things? Do I really fear things? Do I build up too much expectation and then fear failure? \u00a0What do I really seek? I know I seek my own enlightenment. I know I have remained hidden from view, from others, from socialising for a long while. \u00a0I have to take &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=450\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Fear<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-450","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/450"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=450"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/450\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":451,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/450\/revisions\/451"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=450"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=450"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=450"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}