{"id":680,"date":"2014-08-21T05:50:36","date_gmt":"2014-08-21T05:50:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=680"},"modified":"2014-08-21T05:50:36","modified_gmt":"2014-08-21T05:50:36","slug":"todays-thoughts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=680","title":{"rendered":"Today’s thoughts"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve been up since 6 am and I’ve mostly been meditating and working on no mind. I’m pretty relaxed but I’m wondering if I can bring Saturdays work forwards to tomorrow. Hopefully I can as Saturday might well be wet. I’m feeling like I’m getting on top of everything in life to a degree. Small steps work better than the huge leaps I usually make. Sometimes I’m so confident I make big choices without thinking about anything other than the positives. I’ve always thought others were holding me back but now realise that they were possibly a little more rational than me. That’s very hard to admit to! It’s not often, or it didn’t used to be, that I admit I’m wrong. Maybe now I’m more aware of these things I will move forwards in how I want to live much more easily.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Life catches me out at times and when it does I feel small and I feel like I just want to disappear into w hole in the ground. When it happens it catches me totally unaware and it’s only now that I’ve been working on it that I’m seeing the triggers easier, in fact I probably never did see triggers before. \u00a0Anyway I’m feeling great again, a nice great not high, and I’m enjoying it. \u00a0I’ve realised I don’t need to be super human all the time especially not at work. \u00a0Quite often I do the work of two people.\u00a0<\/b><\/p>\n

Now that I’m getting on too of things much more I think I need to book myself into the solitary retreat that I used earlier this year. I know it gets very booked up so I might need to book for early next year. If that’s the case then I’ll have a few days at home to myself. A few relaxing days where I meditate and unwind a lot.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’ve been up since 6 am and I’ve mostly been meditating and working on no mind. I’m pretty relaxed but I’m wondering if I can bring Saturdays work forwards to tomorrow. Hopefully I can as Saturday might well be wet. I’m feeling like I’m getting on top of everything in life to a degree. Small … Continue reading Today’s thoughts<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-680","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/680"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=680"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/680\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":681,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/680\/revisions\/681"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=680"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=680"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=680"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}