{"id":741,"date":"2014-09-10T17:47:35","date_gmt":"2014-09-10T17:47:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=741"},"modified":"2014-09-10T17:47:35","modified_gmt":"2014-09-10T17:47:35","slug":"life-7","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=741","title":{"rendered":"Life"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Sometimes I feel like my life is a story that I&#8217;m just looking in on. I&#8217;m part of the audience not the actual participant. It&#8217;s like I&#8217;m watching things happen instead of making them happen. I&#8217;m just caught up in the story. I&#8217;m not sure what makes me feel like this or how it starts to happen. I&#8217;m not sure why either. Is there a trigger that I&#8217;m not seeing? I know that I seem to fear so many thing in life, things that I never feared before. I guess I need to get my head around things again. Every time I move forwards I feel thwarted. I used to blame others but not any more. It&#8217;s just me as always. I guess at least I&#8217;m facing up to things now instead of denying them.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>How can I be more in myself? Do I analyse too much? I really don&#8217;t know. I know that if I didn&#8217;t analyse so much I wouldn&#8217;t have gotten as far as I have already. I guess at least I&#8217;m aware that things in my life are down to me. That&#8217;s good.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sometimes I feel like my life is a story that I&#8217;m just looking in on. I&#8217;m part of the audience not the actual participant. It&#8217;s like I&#8217;m watching things happen instead of making them happen. I&#8217;m just caught up in the story. I&#8217;m not sure what makes me feel like this or how it starts &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=741\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Life<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-741","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/741"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=741"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/741\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":742,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/741\/revisions\/742"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=741"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=741"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=741"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}