{"id":747,"date":"2014-09-12T20:35:36","date_gmt":"2014-09-12T20:35:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=747"},"modified":"2014-09-12T20:35:36","modified_gmt":"2014-09-12T20:35:36","slug":"sometimes-i-feel-like-screaming","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=747","title":{"rendered":"Sometimes I feel like screaming"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I wish I could scream and shout. Externally I can seem calm and relaxed but I side I feel like shouting, screaming and telling everyone how I see it. Why can&#8217;t we do it? Why is it such a taboo? Why do I wear a mask often if not all of the time? Why do I have so many fears? Why ?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong> I&#8217;m tired of it all. It&#8217;s too tiring. I need lots of rest. I want to go to sleep for a long while. I want to do things too. I&#8217;m too overwrought with it all it&#8217;s all too much. I&#8217;ve had enough. Enough is enough. <\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Yesterday and today I&#8217;ve had a kind of meltdown. On the outside, to most, I probably didn&#8217;t or don&#8217;t seem much different at all. I guess that&#8217;s just the nature of the beast. I&#8217;m feeling mixed that&#8217;s for sure. Maybe I&#8217;m on the edge of the precipice looking down instead of up. Maybe I&#8217;m heading down.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I wish I could scream and shout. Externally I can seem calm and relaxed but I side I feel like shouting, screaming and telling everyone how I see it. Why can&#8217;t we do it? Why is it such a taboo? Why do I wear a mask often if not all of the time? Why do &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=747\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Sometimes I feel like screaming<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-747","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/747"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=747"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/747\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":748,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/747\/revisions\/748"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=747"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=747"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=747"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}