{"id":795,"date":"2014-10-03T06:16:45","date_gmt":"2014-10-03T06:16:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=795"},"modified":"2014-10-03T06:16:45","modified_gmt":"2014-10-03T06:16:45","slug":"friday-again-at-last","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/?p=795","title":{"rendered":"Friday again at last"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s Friday once again. Hurray. I’ve had a good week. Today I’m starting to paint a house externally. I’m really looking forwards to it as painting is like a form of therapy for me. I’m feeling at my best still. I do however have a fear. That fear is what if I’m fooling myself and I’m delusional? Surely feeling good can’t be a delusion can it? I’ve been feeling very good for nearly 3 weeks now and I’m being pretty rational too which is very good for my bank! <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u00a0Yesterday we went to look at a car and I know that had it of been 2 months ago I would of just bought it and convinced myself that it was perfect. Not yesterday though. Yesterday I was uncertain, in all of the right ways, and because I recognised that uncertainty I didn’t make any rash decisions. Luckily I didn’t be use in hindsight I would of put \u00a32,000 on a credit card again. Hurray for feeling normal. \u00a0Boo for feeling normal too in some ways though. <\/strong><\/p>\n

I’m kind of missing feeling high though. It’s not a huge miss but it’s still a miss. My circadian rhythms are very good once again. I’m waking up about 6am even though it’s dark, I normally struggle when it’s dark. Life has a beauty about it again but not a false high ‘I can do anything, I can be anything’ false beauty but real meaning. I’m finally understanding myself and my emotions and moods. Maybe I have cracked it and I’ll never have episodes again or maybe they’ll be much more gentle and controllable. I hope so.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It’s Friday once again. Hurray. I’ve had a good week. Today I’m starting to paint a house externally. I’m really looking forwards to it as painting is like a form of therapy for me. I’m feeling at my best still. I do however have a fear. That fear is what if I’m fooling myself and … Continue reading Friday again at last<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-795","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/795"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=795"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/795\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":796,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/795\/revisions\/796"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=795"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=795"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thebipolarbuilder.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=795"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}