Things are going ok. In fact something good happened today. However I still get paranoid that it’ll go wrong. Why do I think like this still? Things are going well but I think they’ll fuck up. Every time. I’m in a pretty good place mentally so why? I guess it’s default settings in my brain. It’ll take time and work but I will overcome it. I think I’ll end up cutting a few more things and people out of my life to help myself more. There’ll soon only be myself left and I’m my own worst enemy. I’ll win. I know I will.
