Sometimes the best thing one can do is retreat into oneself. Self defence. I don’t think I’m a people person.
It’s still snowy here, we’ve had almost a week of bad weather, and it’s starting to get to me. We’ve hardly been out. I’ve not worked a full week either. I’d not want to be stuck on a space station that’s for sure. Maybe it’s because I have a cold as well as the ground being frozen that I feel like this. There’s very little I can do outside. I’ve pottered about in the polytunnel but that’s about it. I’ve had biliary colic a bit for the last 2 days as well. I guess I ought to go back to the doctors again and see what they think. It was mentioned that if it flares up again I could get referred for surgery. I’d rather avoid that but I’d also not want it to get a bit more serious.
Goals have been slower lately. I need to whip myself back into shape and crack on. No point just lingering in life. I need to push myself along. I guess once the sun comes out again I’ll get an energy boost and get lifted. I feel slow. Too slow. I need energy again. It’ll happen I’m sure. Maybe I need more outside contact again. I have no contact with friends really. I’m not sure I have close friends or special now. Such is life. Easy to loose contact.