I’m finally feeling good again. I did a 10 hour day at work today and things went well too. I’m looking forwards to a restful evening and good meditation before a good nights sleep too. Tomorrow will be another good day at work too. I’ve got lots of work coming in and I’ve got some help from next Tuesday onwards. Things are looking much better. I need to appreciate how good just feel normal and good actually is more often. I guess until I feel rubbish I don’t realise how lucky I am to have good health most of the time. I had feared that my mental health was slipping away from me again.
The last few days I’ve struggled physically at work and it made me struggle mentally lots. My thinking had gotten quite negative at times. I’d also allowed someone back in who I had shut out for awhile. He texted me on Monday and I replied through kindness, It’s someone I’ve been trying to help for a long while, but he’s reverted back to his negative self. He keeps going around in circles and I had hoped he would of seen it by now but he hasn’t. I guess we can all walk around in circles unknowingly at times. I have tried to steer him to the light!
Oh well I’ll keep working on myself and on loving kindness. I can use Tonglen to try to reach him remotely and help to heal him.