I am very aware that I may be going higher than normal. I have some stress at work and it’s tipping the balance for me a bit. I was later going to sleep the last few nights and awake a good while earlier than usual in the mornings. I’ll keep a good eye on it too. I have decided that I need to use the extra energy to get more done. I’m on a partial deadline and need to keep the customer out of the way as much as possible because it’s slowing us down.  I went in early yesterday and will do the same again this morning too. If I’m alone there I can really crack on and get loads done.  

I can’t remember when I last wrote in here but I am now on Lamotrigine and have nearly finished week two of it. Tomorrow I up the dose again by 50mg.  If I’m going into mania rather than hypomanic I’m kind of excited but so very aware that it can bed extractive too. I’m off Facebook and have been for a few days now as it an trigger me so best avoided.  As to the medication helping slow full mania down well we’ll see and I guess it will take time to get built up in me and work properly. If I only go so high then great. I’m certainly getting very distracted and agitated.

 Lots of things are growing in the garden or I guess I should say the polytunnel. Lots of seedlings are coming on here at home too. I love growing things and it can help keep me grounded. What I have noticed the last few days is I’m taking a lot less notice of things as they’re growing whereas last week I was very involved. Something to ponder on I guess. I kind of fear mania now. Especially after last time and how when the full high started to subside and it switched into complete madness of ultradian cycling. That was hell. Anyway plants are growing and I need to think about getting potatoes in very soon now. 

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