I’m up at my usual time today again. I’ve noticed I’m anxious about money. I’m always chasing it. How can I just let go? How can I draw it to me so I don’t have to go after it all the time? I’m not sure. I’m not sure of much again. Tired of the constant chasing of it. Tired of the bad decisions I’ve made that have got me here. Tired of struggle, both mental and physical. I guess I’ll just keep on going, pushing ahead, dreams laying by the wayside.