It’s Tuesday morning, it’s 6:11am and I’ve been awake since 5:30 or there about’s. I woke a couple of times in the night too. When I got up I started having some paranoid thoughts. Even though they’re always unfounded it doesn’t make them easier to deal with. The thing is that in the past if a paranoid thought has been right and not paranoia it makes for a fuzzy line. I’m not sure if I make my life more difficult than it is or if I just have a difficult life. I’ve been told countless times that I’m too positive. Obviously that’s when I’m feeling pretty high. Do we really make things difficult for ourselves in life? Surely others can and do make things difficult for us too? I know of several people who might do things to be awkward or make things awkward for others too. Maybe we should all try to better ourselves.
I don’t feel as paranoid as I did earlier because I talked things through with myself. It doesn’t always work though! I wonder why I get like this? Maybe, as someone else said, I’m ‘wired’ differently. Oh well….