Today has been very productive at work but very strange. I’ve been singing away to myself, nothing wrong so far…I made up my own song or changed lyrics to other songs…so far so good…but I changed them to songs of violence and murder. I’ve had violence on my mind lots today. Lots of violence. Lots of fake scenarios too. Why? I really don’t know why other than my mind playing tricks on me. I can stop it when I become aware of it, usually I do become aware of it, I just bring myself back to presence. Today I’ve thought about violence far too much though and I was exceptionally busy so my mind wandered deeply. I don’t like violence much. Although today I loved my thoughts. I know at times I get psychotic I guess. I’m still feeling high. I did have a huge energy crash today and wasted an hour of today’s time but still got far more than a normal persons daily work done, even my customers were amazed at what I achieved. At least I calmed my mind too and I’m not thinking violence anymore. I’m at peace.
