It’s Sunday. I’m quite relaxed too but I’m questioning life. Sometimes it can suck badly. Sometimes it’s beautiful. Yesterday I had a busy day looking at work but it got stressful. Whilst driving back from one of my meetings my van went wrong. It’s almost 12 months ago that the cam belt broke on it. This time it sounds like the engine again too! I’m just at a loss as to what to do. Do I spend money looking at getting it fixed, if it can be fixed, or do I throw it away. I thought things were going ok so far this year. I’ve got lots of work on. I’m just at a loss about it all. I could feel like I’m being punished and maybe I do feel that a little like that because it has sprung to mind. It’s that typical situation of money being a little tight and also I had just filled the van up with diesel the night before too! I bought the van 15 months ago for £1800 and in total including buying it I’ve spent about £4400 to date! I bought it cheap so that I could save up to get a decent van… That never happened because I had to spend money on it. Oh well. Nose to the grind stone all year again to try to get out of whatever debt it’s going to cost me to either fix this one or buy another!
Oh well rant over. At least my tax is less than I had thought it might be. I’m still surprised that I don’t feel too pissed off. Maybe I can see that it’s just one of those things that can happen. Maybe I will do some serious soul searching and I’ll come through even better. However much I get knocked down I get back up and keep going forwards. I guess that’s all I can do really.
I’m not feeling tense or uptight so that’s good.
